Movies.
Television shows. Internet sites. Food. Hangouts. There are too much of these
in my life. Before I thought these were harmless. They say too much of anything
is not healthy. I always believe that. The problem is, the world lowers and
lowers its standard of the concept of too much. So what is too much?
Too
much of anything is when you get more than what you need. “Too much” is worse
when that ‘anything’ is not something that you need. Later it can be an
addiction. These change my perception of life over and over. I just realized
how they blind my spiritual eyes to see the truth, and to deafen my ears to
hear God’s voice. I lost the balance between seeing the Kingdom of God as of
greater importance and the worldly perishable pleasures. Oh, no, I’m wrong. I
mean, I lost the way to see the way to see that since I was, by default,
blinded before. Real things, like my new life in Christ, death and resurrection,
heaven and hell, God and such become more and more of an alien to me as I
indulge myself to these seemingly harmless activities that fall into the
category of ‘too much.’ Now I act like those people I watch in the movies. I
feel like I am living in fiction. Whenever I am with my friends, life is as if
it revolves around friendships, or delicious foods that my stomach idolizes.
They ALL lead me away from living in the truth. They were not even obvious to
me enemies. I usually avoid too much of anything, but I sock of defining what
too much is, or when is something too much. So as I think that I am okay with
doing these, little did I know I am already being led astray into the world
again. Now I have forgotten my mission, my service for God, my destiny as a
minister of God to the people of the world. I have to go back to my identity,
to my purpose everyday and remind myself why I am here. I have to let go of
these too much and allow God to help me and use me for His glory. I have to
learn how to discipline myself and strive to be changed by God to the point
that the world will be able to know that I am of God, and I am not of this
world.
World,
I forsake you!
