Desire

“Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

-Psalm 37:4

Yes. The desire of my heart. A powerful driving force in my life.

So powerful that it takes over my faith, and enslaves my body.

This is a season when I can not feel the fresh river water flowing at my feet, when I can barely feel the silky grass on my back as I lie down on a green pasture and the gentleness of the breeze touching my skin, and the pain is slowly eating me inside because the strength of my heart’s desire is directly proportional to the impossibility of it to happen.

It was impossible.

All my life I have wanted it to happen. I was praying for it for several years by now and the feeling of discouragement and hopelessness has already crept in. It takes away the joy in me.

But He knows my struggle. He feels for me. He sympathizes for me. My Father is ever with me.

The Lord wants me to be persistent and to continue praying for it. He does not want me to give up (Luke 18:1). He does not want me to be overcome by these feelings and negative thoughts. I believe He was the One who gave me this desire, and He will satisfy me someday. He is telling me to go on and be expectant.

I will delight in the Lord. No matter how strong this struggle is, I will always find peace and hope in Him for He is loving and trustworthy.And He gave His Word that He will give me the desires of my heart. He is first above my desires, and worthy of my praise.

It was impossible to happen, before I learned how to hold on to His promise.